I am having a bad mom day.
I don’t feel like I am cut out for this.
Does/Has anyone else feel/felt this way? I am sure it is normal, but damn it cuts deep.
An excerpt from an IM between me and my ever-so-supportive husband (and good dad), it is brutally honest about how i feel today, so be warned. Don’t judge me to harshly or if you do fuck off and keep it to yourself.
me: i feel like all i’ve done is fight all day and i don’t think i am cut out for being a mother, at least not a good one.
Cybr: The fact that you can survive days like this show that you are a good mother. A bad mother would have done something they should regret
me: i just sit here and cry…occasionally yell, mostly at the dogs and cats but once at kira today
i hate this temper (tantrum) shit
i hate that she won’t nap when she can’t even stand (because she’s so tired)
i hate that i yelled at her
i hate that i don’t know what to do or if what i do is right
i hate that she calls your name when i don’t go in her room after about 10 minutes of screaming
i am so burned out right now
i think i need meds to cope with being a mom and i hate that too.
i am a shitty mom if i have to be medicated to do it
Cybr: you are doing good you just don’t give yourself enough credit
you do great with Kira, you should be proud
there are going to be bad days for both of you… she’s probably feeling sick from us or something else… its going to happen
you are sick and I’m around sick people so its only a matter of time till she gets something
hell we’ve been extremely lucky in that area so far
its been almost a year and how many times has she TRULY been sick? Not many.