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Jul
30
SUPERSTAR!

Here’s my little superstar sporting her Hollywood look:

hollywood kira-sm

Today is my 3rd wedding anniversary.  We both forgot about it, as you may have read at cybrpunk.com.

Happy Anniversary!  We can celebrate in a week or so when I get back from Chicago…assuming I survive the remainder of the week with 7 kids!

Yeah, I said 7.

There is one 8 month old, two 3 year olds, one 5 year old, two 6 year olds and 12 year old.  Yikes.  I say that with less enthusiasm after 4 days with them, as they are wearing me down.  I know for certain that they are all really good kids; however, I also know for certain that I may never have more than one (possibly two)…and I am debating keeping the one I’ve got.

A week with this many kids makes you yell a lot more than you would prefer, it makes you more tired than you ever imagined possible, it makes you laugh more than usual, laugh harder than usual, and gets your blood pressure higher than is healthy.

In other news, my baby girl is having some issues and some milestones.  While I turned my head for a brief moment, she took a hit off a soy milk filled sippy cup on Monday which she and I both have been paying dearly for ever since.  She is starting to feel better, but still having some issues with a raw, red butt and diarrhea…oh, and an eczema flare up.  She has been saying “momma” for a week, started it last Thursday and hasn’t stopped saying it since.  It is funny how that is the best moment ever when your child starts calling you momma, then after a few years you get so sick of hearing it you consider the witness protection program.  Her first REAL teeth, for those of you who saw her FAKE first teeth (hehe), have come through and can be felt and seen clearly now.  It is the bottom two.  Awe, my baby is getting so big.

See you soon, Vince, and I’ll take you up on the celebration when I get home!

I try to share my personal parental miseries, failures, triumphs and other human moments with all of you with the utmost honesty…however, lately I have been barely capable of keeping my nose above the waterline, thus the temporary lack of anything worth writing.  There has been a lot going on here on our home-front and a lot going on around me with loved-ones.

I have had to pass on several (much needed!) opportunities to hang out with friends, have a drink, and regroup because there is just a lot of demand on my priorities lately.  While necessary, this has left me drained, stressed, and insomnious…which is taking its toll on me physically.

This is obviously just one of those times that are a dreadful, necessary part of life and it, too, will pass.

If only I could get some reassurance that I am going to come out on the other side sometime in the near future, that would really help.  But since that isn’t likely, I suppose I will just keep chugging along.

I have recently gained a bit of insight, if only it sticks with me.  I imagine that this will.  I have been greatly in need of a better attitude toward my situation as a SAHM and the set-backs that creates with all other aspects of me and my former self.  I have been needing to find a more serene place to exist where, although there are many things I’d like to be accomplishing right this very moment, I am happy just spending time with my child and making the most out of these days that we will never get back.  I have been needing to let go of all the things I’d like to be pursuing and just be in the moment.  This is hard for me because I am the type of person that decides, “oh, hey, I think I will (fill in the blank)” and I do it.  Not tomorrow, but as soon as it crosses my mind.  I can’t do that right now, I have to wait for the opportunity and I have to manage my time accordingly.  This isn’t working for me and I have had a terrible attitude about it for a while now…

Well, here is where I gain some insight.

I have been presented with a potential challenge to my child’s health, which I do not care to elaborate on at this time, and I have decided that just the potential for her to have a serious health concern is enough to open my eyes WIDE to how good I’ve got it.  On the bright side to this potential bad thing, there is this insight that nothing I aspire to do or be is more important than even 10 minutes of my day spent with my little girl even doing the most mundane activity, even doing nothing at all.